Cruise :)

So as I was laying in bed last night getting ready to fall asleep  I got to thinking about my life. I was depressed for so long even after it was all over with it was still hard for me to see how good it could really be. I know now what I've always known is that happiness isn't a state of life but a perspective of it. Anyways as I was thinking about it, I'm pretty happy with my life right now. It's been a long time since I've been able to say that. I may not have a lot of money but I have a job. I may not have a lot of friends anymore but I have Brad and that's more than enough. My family may be crazy and put me through bullshit sometimes but I love them and they keep things exciting. And honestly I owe this realization to Brad because without him I wouldn't have been able to see this. He doesn't realize how much he does help me. I'm a bitch to him sometimes....okay maybe a lot but he still chooses to stay. Through my bullshit, through my families bullshit, he's still there. That's more than I can say anyone has done for me. Sometimes I don't just need a friend to listen to my problems, I need someone to be there with me and hold my hand as I go through it all and he does that. I know that I don't have to be alone anymore. So yea thank you Brad, I know you're going to read this so thank you for what you've done. I love you more than you know. I'm always here for you and I'll never leave you as long as you don't want me to <3