Storm Warning

Sometimes I really struggle with the fact that I have no idea who I am. I'm almost 18 years old and I still don't have a clue. As an adult aren't I supposed to? I wonder if we ever really know who we are. We're always changing depending on people you meet and things we see everyday. I feel like that quote from Alice in Wonderland, "I knew who I was this morning but I've changed since then." Part of my problem is that I over analyze everything. I've always believed that we hold the answers to certain questions within ourselves but sometimes they're so hard to find and looking for them is exhausting. I guess I'm just confused, contradictory, and just a mess and that's okay. I need to learn how to accept things for what they are and not waste my time and my emotions on things that don't matter. I want to go back to when things were simpler. Before I grew up and made major mistakes of my own. Life has never been simple or easy for me but it definitely wasn't this complicated. I once heard someone say that the key to happiness was lowering your standards and changing your view of life required changing the way you think about things. Kind of like how they say once you do something a bunch of times it becomes routine. Well this is me lowering my standards and trying to let go of they past. Tomorrow I'll probably change my mind and my view on this idea but what's important is that I had it in the first place....I think. Ha ha I have no idea.