New Years Resolution

Most new years resolutions people make never come true, but I am determined to make this one come true. My only vow for this year is to love myself more. I feel like it's something I need to do not only for myself but for my baby as well. Every mistake and heart break I've ever made and had has led me to this beautiful child and for that I have no regrets. Sometimes I feel like I do but honestly every path and decision you make in your life leads you to where you're going to be. I am going to find humor in the fucked up situations I get in. I'm done with hating myself because of what other people say. I'm tired of being told what to do and I become a bitch to people then oh well because I am 18 damn years old and I am well capable of making my own decisions. I can do bad all on my own. I don't need anyone pointing out my flaws or putting me down. If anything happens to me and Bradley I'm done with 3rd chances and so forth. I don't have time for them anymore. I have bigger things to worry about. If your with me then your with me if not then you can kiss my ass. This is my life, this is our life and I promise to do the best I can. I'm done with tears and I'm done with worrying over people that want to keep secrets. What no one has ever fucking understood is I am alot stronger than I look and when they fucking hide shit from me not to hurt me, it just hurts even worse. I"m done with giving people my everything and only getting half of them. No one will ever get inside again. No one will ever see who I truly am. This past year I have been hurt and I've healed, and I've been hurt again. Every year it's the same damn thing. Not just by my significant others but by family too. I'm over the bullshit and I have more to live for now than just myself. I control my future and I am in charge of where I end up in life and heart broken will not be it.